if you all have notice from my previous posts, lately i was going through a rough patch in my life. The past month seems like i was taking a roller coaster ride, the ups and down was crazy. The assignments, the relationship, the flights and the fatigue is like draining me dry. but oh well, things have since lighten up a little for me. Assignments are all completed and it is almost the end of this school semester, it means that i don’t have to fantically giving away my flights to be around for classes. and now, finally i have more time to myself.
Lately, i have this conflicting thoughts. it is kind of crazy, i wonder if anyone ever felt the same way like i did? i am back to being single and alone again after ending a 3 yrs relationship. In one way or another, i felt i needed the break, and i enjoy being alone now with so much time to myself. i love the fact that i can do whatever i want now without having to communicate or explain to anyone why i am doing this or that.
but on the other hand, when i witness the fact that so many of my friends are getting a house, getting married and having a baby, it sort of making me feel jealous. Like i want to be tie down too if i ever met the one. isn’t it contradicting? is it possible to have a family and yet i still have the total freedom to do whatever i want without feeling pressurise to give it all up because i have a hubby and a kid?
right. i should just stop torturing my mind now and give it a break, should just let nature takes it course and not to think too much into it. ( sorry to have to bore u with all this!!)
Just feel like relaxing my mind and don’t think about anything else. perhaps a holiday soon again? lol…It is the norms that after every school semester ends, i will feel like having a holiday again. haha… but now it is so difficult to take a break with all my flights so packed. 😦
hope things are going on smoothly for all of you! 🙂
went to “strictly pancakes” with shirley and boon for lunch.
Party night with lynette and the bankers.
and lastly, end it with a big picture of myself!! lol. haha…
well.. i often think like u do too. just that i’ll nv find e courage. its brave of u to take e first step. hang on babe! jia you!